Mothersbsp;
妈妈的小甜饼
AsIsatperthesed-floorwindowofourbrickschoolhousethatafternoobegantosiheagcar。ThiswasadayI'dlookedforwardtoforweeks:MissPacerade,end-of-the-yearparty。MissPacehadkeptarunningontheblackboardallthatweek,andourine-year-oldshadborderedoiohemuticipated"partyFriday"hadarrived。
IhadhappilyvoluherwhenMissPacerequestedcookievolunteers。Mom'schocolatechipsreignedsupremeonourblodIkhey'dbeahitwithmyclassmates。Buttwoo'clockpassed,andtherewasnosigoftheothermothershadalreadyeandgsofpundcrackers,chips,cupdbrowherwasmissingina。
"Don'tworry,Robbie,she'llbealongsoon,"MissPacesaidasIgazedforlornlydow。Ilookedatthewallclotimetoseeitsblautehandshifttohalf-past。
Arouhenedon,butIwouldn'tbudgefrommyatissPacedidherbesttoeaway,butIstayedput,holdingouthopethatthefamiliarfamilycarwouldroundtheer,gmyrightfullyembarrassedmotherwithatinofherfamouscookiestuderherarm。
&hreeo'clockbellsoonjoltedmefrommythoughtsaedlygrabbedmybookbagfrommydeskahedoorforhome。
Onthefour-blockwalktoourhouse,Iple。Iwouldslamthefrontdoorup,refusetwhensherushedovertome,aospeaktain。
ThehousetywhenIarrivedandIlookedforaherefrigerathtexplainmymother'sabsefoundnone。Myquiveredwithamixtureofheartbreakahefirsttimeiherhadletmedown。
IwaslyingfaybedupstairswhenIheardherethroughthefrontdoor。
"Robbie,"shecalledoutabiturgently。"Whereareyou?"
IhearherdartingfrantitorowhereIcouldbe。Iremai。I,shemouhesouepsquigassheasdedthestaircase。
&eredmyroomandsatbesidemeonmybed,Ididn'tmovebutiaredblanklyintomypilltoaowledgeherpresence。
"I'msosorry,ho;shesaid。"Ijustfotbusyandfot—plaina;
Istilldidn'tmove。"Doniveher,"Itoldmyself。"Shehumiliatedyou。Shefotyou。Makeherpay。"
&herdidsomethielyued。Shebegantolaugh。Icouldfeelhershudderasthelaughtershafirstandthesvelodvolume。
Iwasincredulous。Howcouldshelaughatatimelikethis?Irolledoverandfacedher,readytoletherseetherageanddisappoiinmyeyes。
Butmymotherwasn'tlaughingatall。Shewasg。"I'msosorry,"shesobbedsoftly。"Iletyoudowleboydown。"
Shesankdownonthebedaoweeplikealittlegirl。Iwasdumbstruck。Ihadheryuanding,mothersweren'tsupposedto。IwohiswashowIlookedtoherwhenIcried。
&elytriedtorecallherownsoothingwordsfromtimespastwhenI'dskiubbedtoes,timeswheherightthingtosay。Butinthatmomentht,wordsofprofundityabandonedmelikeaworn-outshoe。
"It'sokay,Mom,"IstammeredasIreachedoutarokedherhair。"Wedidn'tevehosecookies。Therelentyofstufftoeat。Don'tcry。It'sallright。Really。'
Mywords,asiheysouedmymothertositup。Shewipedhereyes,andaslightsmilebegaear-stainedcheeks。Ismiledbackawkulledmetoher。